My Tidbits and Poetry…
Okay, I am going to finally share some of my precious writing with you from years on back…I hope maybe reading through these and copying them to my blog may inspire me to write poetry again…
These will be under the category “MY THOUGHTS THROUGH WRITTEN WORDS”…
Maybe, I may inspire you…
Hope you enjoy…Feel free to comment if you would like…
Again…Thank You for continuing to follow, read, comment and like…
Where Have I Been???
Yes, you are right in assuming, I have not written for a few days…I admit I have failed and I am not PERFECT…Right now though…I am struggling with waking up and crawling out of bed…I am trying to get back into the habit of writing on my blog…Truthfully though…I have learned to just accept myself where I am at…
If I do not have the burning, yearning desire to write…I won’t do it…It is not fair to my readers, followers or even likers for me to blog/write when my heart and head is not there…
That is WHERE I HAVE BEEN…
To Truly Appreciate The Glow Of The Sun…We Must Have Some Period Of Darkness…
Rabindranath Tagore said,
“Faith is the bird that feels the
light when the dawn is still dark.”
den 127 Matthew 4:16
This is the beautiful rainbow God blessed us with seeing today…Day started out exhausting…We went to the hospital with all three kids at 1 a.m. and left around 3 a.m. Husband just couldn’t take the pain in his back any longer…He was getting nauseous and was unable to sleep…He was able to get a shot and some pain relief medication to take home…Today, he is feeling better and able to move about…Not much of a diagnosis though…Just told him to take it easy and continue doing what he needs to do…Thank You God that my husband is feeling better…
Everyone in the house was just super tired and moody today because of the late night for us…But life still goes on…So off to the store the oldest two and I went…My daughter said she heard raining in the store but we just figured it was the sound of the air conditioner…Well, it did rain and she was right…As we were walking out the door we spotted this rainbow…I wanted to take a picture of it but I didn’t have my camera…Then my oldest son reminded me that my cell phone had a camera…He had to show me where it was on the phone…But here are the pictures…It is absolutely breathtaking…It has been a long time, since I have seen a rainbow this big and stretched across the sky…I believe it was God’s promise to us…It was one of those mysterious signs/plans that God has in place to remind us that he loves us and he is in control of everything…I cannot explain how much better I felt immediately…The sight of it literally had me in tears…It was amazing to me…Thank You God for your amazing and beautiful creation of the Rainbow…
As the kids and I were driving…I was telling them, that they could of missed out on the opportunity to see the rainbow…If they were engage in their DSI, Tablets and/or Cellphones…But since they are grounded from electronics…They were able to see the Rainbow…Just another reminder from God too…That I am doing a great job as a mother…They followed it as long as they could as we drove home…But when we got home…It could not be seen…It had not rained at our house…Even though, we are only 10 minutes from the store…Thank You God for making sure we went to the store today to see the Rainbow…
It is late yet again…So need to call it quits for the night…I will try my best to talk to you about school and tell you more about my day…For now, off to bed and enjoy you morning my readers…
Your Beauty and creations God…Are perfect in every way…
Matthew 4:16 NIV says,
the people living in darkness have
seen a great light; on those living
in the land of the shadow of death
a light has dawned
Don’t Give In And Quit…I Promise, God Will Always Have A Blessing Around The Corner…
Bret Harte said,
“The only sure thing about
luck is that it will change.”
PÄIVÄ 126 2 Samuel 22:29 NIV
Quick One tonight…Kids are still up been that kind of day…Trying to take care of hubby, kids, house and myself…Kids have been very busy and active this evening…It doesn’t matter if I put them in bed…They still cannot fall asleep…So, I let them have a later bedtime when this happens…Another beauty of homeschooling…
Hubby is having severe pain in his hip and back area…I would assume he has a pinched nerve in his hip…But that is just my opinion…He is having difficulty getting comfortable in any position…So, I need to spend my time helping him to feel better and get rested…
Today though, had another moment that God isn’t finished with me yet…When, I thought, I just got another problem under control…He allows something else to pop up in our lives…Now more strict parenting is in the works…I see now, why my relationship with God is so important as a parent to ensure that I raise my children up right…And, that I continue to trust in God that he has my back when I make these tough parenting decisions…
Will share tomorrow more about my school plans…For now, I just received a phone call this afternoon…HOORAY FOR ME, I GOT ACCEPTED INTO SCHOOL!!!
Now, off to go care for my family…And maybe squeeze in a good night’s sleep later…
Thank You God for giving me the strength to continue to do what needs done in my position as a mother, wife and daughter of yours…Thank You for clearing my path for me to go back to school…Thank You God for my continued patience and love with my children as we learn together to become more like you…
God, your blessing are always given without any reason except your love for me…Praise your wondrous name for all that you do…
2 Samuel 22:29 NIV says,
You are my lamp, O Lord; the
Lord turns my darkness into light.
When You Learn To Accept Yourself Completely…Your True Beauty Will Shine…
Jacqueline Bisset said,
“A mode of conduct, a standard of
courage, discipline, fortitude, and
integrity can do a great deal to
make a woman beautiful”
jou 125 John 14:27 NIV
ANXIETY CONSUMES ME TODAY!!!
Having a difficult evening tonight…I am in the middle of a panic attack and it does not want to end…Last Night, I was up for most of the evening with one…I use to get them regular at my last employer…But it has been about a year that I have had them to this extent and them last this long…It is a miserable feeling…My heart is racing…I feel like I cannot breathe…When this all started again a few weeks ago…I thought, I may be having an asthma attack or I was getting sick…So, I would have a puff or 2 on my inhaler…When that was not working, I finally realized I am fighting anxiety again…Which, also makes my tremors worse too…
I am trying to take deep breaths and tell myself over and over again, that it is just a panic attack and it will pass but these things are lasting forever…Last night went on for a few hours…After some research on Google, I learned that this new medication I am taking for my weight loss can cause anxiety, agitation and panic attacks…
Do I want to try to lose weight and be panicky or do I want to be overweight and feel calm and depressed??? This is a hard decision to make here…
For those of you who have or are currently battled anxiety my heart goes out to you…This is not fun and is a real thing…It can sometimes feel as if the world is ending and you are literally having a heart attack…Many times, you have no control over them happening…It is just something we battle with…
It also has become increasingly difficult to complete schoolwork with the kids here at home and get my normal everyday chores down…It is hard to concentrate and do daily tasks when my heart feels as if it is jumping out of my chest and my tremors or out of control…It is equally hard to go out in public because I feel like I have a sign on me that says “BEWARE, CRAZY IN MOTION”…I feel like everyone can see what is going on in my mind and can hear my heart beating as loud as a fire engine coming down the road…It is exhausting and scary…
I continue to try my hardest to do what needs done…My hope and faith is that this is a temporary thing and with pass like so many difficulties have in my life…Somewhere in the midst of this…There is a lesson to be learned…
I guess for the time being…I am going to have to take a minute at a time and continue to fight for what I want…I do have a lot of things going on in my life and more things than I can count on my mind…The idea of starting back school again…Concerns and worry about financing for bills, kids summer camp, car problems, house repairs and everything in-between that cost money…I am also fighting a battle for my self to become a better mother, wife and woman…Lots going on but nothing I cannot handle with my Savior Jesus Christ…
Thank You God for a loving and supportive husband who talks with me during these times…Thank You God for a husband who understand first hand the emotion and painful turmoil of anxiety…Thank You for loving and patient children who accept me for who I am and where I am at in life…Thank You God for giving me another day to live, laugh and love…Thank You God for hope…
God, your ways may sometimes appear unimaginable and very mysterious…But when you pour out your blessings on me…Your plan all fits together perfectly…Just like how the stars have their own unique place in the sky…
John 14:27 NIV says,
Peace I leave with you; my peace
I give you. I do not give to you as
the world gives. Do not let your
hearts be troubled and
do not be afraid.
Let Me Show You The Beauty God Has Created…One Piece At A Time…
Emily Dickinson said,
” I’ll tell you how the sun rose
a ribbon at a time.”
mysunlightinthegloom 